And You Haven't by Michelle678 on tailcast

I wish I was your obsession.
As you are for me.

Most people have a apathetic opinion of me. I am used to this. I’ve gotten over Alex not wanting to be close, and Alan, and Ed unfriending on facebook and unfollowing on twitter. People who add me to skype, but are never there.
Ones who have an excuse when they are. A long conversation with someone who never calls again.

I just wish some people would do the things they say.
You said you’d subscribe,
and you haven’t.
You said you’d add me to skype,
and you haven’t.

I was making excuses for you, you aren’t at home, you don’t have access. Then I found out you brought your laptop and were talking to Vee. There is a hole in this theory, I now see,
and you haven’t.

I thought we had a good day, anyone who knows me well would say it.
I actually talked, and joined in, or tried.
Any other time I’d be the wallflower on the side, watching from the bleachers but afraid to play.
You even talked back and rode in my car.
I thought that meant something.
Tying a bond.
And you haven’t.

I wish I’d made an impression on you the way you have on me. I was expecting at least one comment on pictures from that day, they have you in them.
And you haven’t.
A comment on my page perhaps, saying it was good to meet you.
And you haven’t.

I bet you don’t even realize it hurts, everyone loves you, I’ve never been that adored.
And you haven’t.

Yet again I fail at making an impression, my mind says I tried,
but your actions say :

And you haven’t.

my broken ♥ will mend

Originally posted Jul 27th, 2009 9:40pm (on tumblr)